dread

So there is something I have been dreading doing and I did it and it wasn't bad at all. Actually it made me feel good. Why I dreaded it I'm not sure except the usual fears of rejection and failure and general insecurity. I wish I could get over that.

I used to have a fried that was incompetent. Even when he tried to do something well, really tried he did it poorly. I always thought if I only had his bravery I could take over the world. I am competent and smart, but scared. I wish I could get over that.