disappointments

so today i found out that i wasn't getting something that i really really wanted. i'm hurt but not as disappointed as i thought i would be. rejection is hard but at least i feel like i did everything in my power to get what i wanted.

i often try to hide my disappointments. i don't want people to think i'm week or hurt because i believe that people will try to exploit my weaknesses. of course this isolates me and then prevents me from forming and sustaining bonds. so i'm not going to do that anymore. or at least i'm going to try not to do that anymore.